So, here it is. The words have been spoken, the promise has been heard, and now I need to see it thru. Day One of this unbelievable journey I have found myself on.
Over the last year Ki and I have been stirred by something that we didn't really know how to wrap our brains around. The water crisis of our world. Americans don't get it, and until a year ago, we were pretty unaware. However...to ignore it now, would be to violate everything Matthew says about the "least of these". I cannot imagine what it would be like as a mom to give my children water that they desperately need to survive, knowing it is so contaminated that this very water will eventually give them a disease that will take their lives. Even now, that thought brings me to tears.
I have pondered this for months, all the while having something else restless inside my head. I love lia sophia. I love what this company has done for my family and those on my team, but I always wondered if I was "wasting" God's time. Was pursuing money wrong? I began to wrestle with this and pray for God's wisdom. As I arrived at our National Conference this past week, the theme was MORE. I kept thinking what I wanted MORE of. And there on Monday night, I figured out, I want more of all of it to make a difference for eternity. MORE women to influence and help acheive their dreams, MORE money to be able to be debt free and give it away, MORE time that counts with my children. MORE flexibility with my schedule. All things lia could give me that another job could give me part of, but not all of.
Then in only a way that God could...I left lia conference for CIY. The mission of the week????....a group called Active Water...who's very mission is to provide clean water wells to 3rd world countries. There it laid before me. The opportunity, the desire and the timing. I shared my big, scary goal with Kiley who said..."sounds awesome babe, run for it". Suddenly there was something I had been longing for over the past several weeks....peace. Peace that God had so plainly shown me a path, and confirmed it many times over. It was like the doors flew off my heart and I knew God was preparing me for an adventure.
Now, I will tell you that peace with God's plan for your life, doesn't always mean you feel perfectly fine. Quite the contrary. I am overwhelmed, unsure of how to tackle this, and the fear of failing is nagging in the back of my head. I am hesitant to blurt it out, because if I keep it in my heart then failure isn't so public. And yet, that's not God's plan for me. We asked our students to make some brave commitments this past week, and I shared ours right along with them, so they would know we are in the trenches too. There is no easy way for us. We depend on 100% of my income for our families needs, so to sacrifice even a portion of that will mean some giant trusting.
Even in that....I know a few things....
1) He is able to do exceedingly and abundantly more than we can ask or imagine (romans)
2) I can do all things thru Christ who gives me strength (philippians)
3) If anyone one lacks wisdom, they should ask God. (james)
So would you pray for me on this journey? That I would boldly walk in this direction. That I would work towards it even when its hard and I'm tired. That God would make the details plain and clear for me. That people would come to know the character of God better because of the way I choose to walk this journey.
I won't write daily, but I'll try to keep you posted on at least monthly basis. I know that the minimum needed is $5000 and some places its has high as $10,000 needed to build, install and maintain a well. We want to pay for that well as soon as possible, because the need is great.
I am sure there will be high points and low. All the while...may Jesus' be lifted high in this adventure.
Putting one foot in front of the other,
Chel
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